. . . 30 minutes of wonderful . . .: Arrival

How did I get here? I don’t know for sure but I’ve finally arrived! I think I was always searching but I wasn’t sure for what. And maybe I didn’t even know I was looking.

I know a few days ago I heard this song - it was a love song. But while I was singing it I wanted someone to sing it to me and then I WAS singing it to me. I was imagining what it would feel like to love yourself that much. I wondered if I could love myself so much that I could be my own best friend - my own lover - my confidante - my cheerleader. The song was I Won’t Give Up by Jason Mraz:

When I look into your eyesIt's like watching the night skyOr a beautiful sunriseWell there's so much they holdAnd just like them old stars
I see that you've come so farTo be right where you areHow old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up

And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easilyI'm here to stay and make the difference that I can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and giftsWe got yeah we got a lot at stakeAnd in the end you're still my friend at least we did intendFor us to work we didn't break, we didn't burnWe had to learn, how to bend without the world caving inI had to learn what I got, and what I'm notAnd who I am

I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking upI'm still looking up

Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)God knows I'm tough (I am tough) he knows (I am loved)We got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up